Scylla and Charybdis

Like other women of my age, I’ve intensely internalized the drive to not be a bother. (This often annoys those near and dear to me as I consequently suffer from the work-related difficulty in “saying no” as well as a profound dislike of trumpeting my own horn.)

That kind of attitude makes for a great team player but it also doesn’t get you to the top in academia, now, does it? This year I want to devote extra attention to my research. I will continue to fulfill genuine administrative needs and teaching roles. I said no to teaching a graduate overload (and am still wrestling with the guilt over that). I am trying to work more days with my office door closed at least part of the time. That, too, is a struggle. But, God Almighty, if I don’t get some more work in print, where the heck will I be, professionally?

I need to navigate between the extremes of self-abnegation and divadom. Wish me luck.

4 Responses to “Scylla and Charybdis”

  1. sm Says:

    Luck!

    If you need help sticking to your resolution, give me a call.

  2. Barbara Says:

    More divadom is definately needed sis! Since I have staked out science diva, you want to be history diva?

  3. Another Damned Medievalist Says:

    This is one of my goals for this year. Shall we pursue semi-divadom together?

  4. Nettie Says:

    It’s almost a year since my desperate urge to perform all administrative tasks (lest they be attempted and ruined by lesser mortals) led to my dissolving in floods of tears in a management group meeting.

    Since then I’ve had the joy of seeing administration done poorly or in a wasteful, labour-intensive manner by people who just don’t understand how to do things properly. And I’ve got some lovely plants for my office.